Six months ago, I braced myself for an emotional rollercoaster. I sat back, strapped myself in, pushed the big green button, and propelled myself into the highs and lows of my quarter life crisis-ing adventure.
It was last year when I made the courageous decision to step out of my comfort zone and figure out what life has to offer out there. At that time, when I shared my plans to some friends, they asked - why? I would always tell them, “it’s now or never.”
I admit, I have no idea what I’m going to do with my life (not then and certainly not even now) - but I’m not about to say I regret my decision. I was at a point in my life where money and comfort were not what I was looking for. I was looking for something new, something bigger, something that will inspire and challenge me. I knew then that if I don’t do it now, I might never have the opportunity to do it in the future.
For so long, I was living in a bubble. A comfortable world that I was blessed to be a part of. I had a great job, working for a great company, earning, and still have just about enough to reward myself from time to time. But I was craving for something else. I wanted something more.
If this is the textbook definition of having quarter life crisis - experiencing emotional highs and lows, depression, a sense of being lost, constantly evaluating yourself, asking what your worth is or how much of a person are you, having so many plans that you don’t even know where to start, and thinking about where are you going with your life - then I guess, this is it. Welcome to adulthood express! Where all your dreams are about to be crashed into the towering wall of reality.
These past few months, I have made a lot of plans, decisions, life altering moves that may or may not be based on sound judgment. But it was all about the experience. That’s the game of life. It’s about taking risks and putting yourself out there. It’s about stepping out of your comfort zone and looking out into the real world with big, hopeful, excited eyes.
So no. Don’t ask me what I’m going to do with my life. I don’t even have a solid answer at this point. All I know is, I am living for the experience. I may not be where I imagined myself to be 5 or 6 years ago, but hey, I know I’ll get there. Just you wait.
See you all on the other side.
Carlo Santos. Unemployed. Living. Enjoying life.